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That's fine so - because then you know how much effort it needs to create things and you know to appreciate later on those things you have achieved and even more those things that are given to you.
There was no fun - i always had to create fun to have fun. That is easy to do - all you need is to make someone happy and you have something to enjoy. For example you dance and make a girl happy while dancing her to heaving and she is smiling and happy all the time ... and you have fun.
I wanted adventure - so i had to work and earn and create my adventure. I love adventure so i planned to go out into this world and learn in an adventurous way all that can be learned.
Work never jumps into your face - you have to search for - so did i. Why should anyone search for work ? That is easy. No money no honey is a very known saying here in the Philippines. True it is !!! having money comes from working. Working means loving others - as a return you received love from others - love has many forms - in its most neutral you can even regard your salary as love - because it allows you to be exchanged all around the world into all those things you need to progress or to have fun.
Hence there is a real and very natural motivation to work. Working allows to be free. Freedom on earth ...
My parents never gave me any freedom - i took it because it is a divine right to BE FREE and no one in entire creation has a right to limit your freedom. Deep inside my heart and even in childhood i always loved freedom. I exceeded just about every single restriction anyone ever gave me on earth.
Liesel and Hans prohibited to go to the nearby river and in the water - i did it anyway because that is what all children love - water. Whatever my earthy parents prohibited i did it. In secret if necessary. If you want to enjoy life and freedom and love - then you have to take the freedom to do what you love to do. All you need is to be strong.
Liesel and Hans prohibited to go on vacation - even as a teenager. After the age of 12 I had a bicycle and a loving aunt 99 km away - if i wanted a day or weekend off - i had to take my bicycle and go there. With 16 or 17 i went the first time to Italy - alone and of course from my own money. Nobody offered me vacation - i had to take it. When you work like a horse all life starting from early childhood - then you also have the right to enjoy and be free when needed.
Who ever is working also has the right to be free and enjoy life. But you have to take the freedom to have fun and enjoy life and of course you have to pay on your very own all the fun and free time you want.
If you want to have fun - of course you also need some money - at least sometimes for certain activities like dancing, dining out, recreation or sport. Never in my mind was there a place nor time to think i have no time or i have no money.
Whatever i wanted - i earned and got.
How is that done ? You have to be peaceful by stopping to to get involved with any kind of fighting. But even if there is no fighting from you - others still might want to bother you. Then you have to make them peaceful by telling them to stop bothering you. To do so you have to be stronger than all those bothering you like mosquitoes.
One day at the age of about 10 or 11 - i had a classmate one year younger, strong farmer son - he always liked to choke me during the break at school. There is little you can do - it is annoying to have someone choking you all the time.
After a few weeks i was fed up and throw him into the the cold fountain at school - he was totally wet returning to class and no one ever said a word and and had peace for ever from him.
Another time during first winter in the farmers village - i had to walk 3 km to school and half of it usually back home with 3 others. 2 old farmer girls 3 or 4 years older than me and a very strong farmer son about 3 years older. In winter time in deep snow we had to go with our skis ... on the way home they always pushed me into the snow. A few times. What to do against 3 much older farmer's children ? Farmer and their children are doing heavy work - hence they all are very strong and i just arrived a few months earlier in that village.
After a few times - i took off my ski and hit them on the head of the young man and i had peace for the remainder of time. Never again was there anyone ever bothering me. Sometimes you have to stop others from taking our peace or from restricting your freedom or damaging you or others.
Freedom is divine - peace is divine and no one on earth has a right to restrict or take any of it.
Never fight - for any reason what so ever. But if someone enters your privacy and disturbs your freedom WITHIN your own boundaries - then you may have to proof that you are your own boss within your own boundaries.
Look at the animal kingdom. Most of all animals never extend their territory. But hey defend their territory to have peace. It is but a small territory you really need - may be even one single room - but that must be yours and only yours. That must be a place where no one enters unless invited, where no one restricts anything nor tells you what or how to do things nor who to visit you.
There was no school education - I had to get it. I selected my own school education, made my own choices and always made my own decisions. I made my own homework decided what school to go and when to stop going to school. Later on i decided what job to learn - what apprenticeship to select and where in this world to travel.
There was no single job really given to me - i had to earn each of them - and if i was looking for a better one - i was aware that better jobs with better pay are the result of making something needed and qualified by others to the fullest possible satisfaction of others.
Career never was an option for my - nor studying. During the childhood and early teenage years of course i played with various thoughts - but only for days or maximum weeks - a few minutes every once in a while - then such ideas where gone. Freedom has a price. Simplicity and qualification in simple and really needed jobs is the key to real freedom.
My parents were both ill - many illnesses. Some contagious, some can be inherited. Every once in a while they sent me to the doctor to see if i have anything they had - and i always was healthy.
Liesel getting more and more ill and blind - doctors always meant i should get the very same - i had eyes like an eagle and still have.
Karma is never inherited - nor are illnesses or handicaps. They all are earned by your very own karma and mistakes and hence all and anything can be prevented or healed by your very own love, loving efforts and healthy job and life.
I was born a baby like you and all - all i wanted i had to become first. You can only become what you have in your mind as a goal. In my mind i always was strong - so had my body to become equal to my inside. Inside and outside must be equal and in harmony !!! YOU have to create such harmony - no one else is doing your inside job for you.
As a result of work, training, self discipline and again more work i had to become in my body what i needed to be free and healthy and happy.
My physical parents never allowed me to have a girl friend nor to select a wife. Around my age 15 or so Hans told me repeatedly "when you have a girl friend you first have to bring her to me" - he meant to be the one to decide, to give permission or deny permission who to be my girlfriend.
3 times i was married and he only ever saw one of the marriages.
I was never happy - i had to create happiness in others to enjoy looking into smiling eyes. How in heaven or hell do people belief or expect to be happy without ever making others happy. To be happy among and amidst crying babies, crying or aching children or adults ???
i was never unhappy because all my life i was somehow full time busy in helping others or making others free or strong. Hence there could be but happiness around even in the many countries of war i worked.
I never encountered an ideal or best situation in my life - i always had to create it by improving what was around.
I had make time, change priorities, drop junk, quit jobs, even within days or hours to be and enjoy what i am - a FREE child of God.
There were many times where there was nothing or little to eat - from early childhood - even during past years - but there always was enough to share. 2 years ago i was living with my beloved extended family - a wild bunch of loving poor children of God all wild, all smiling and all somehow working and helping each other. There were times we had little or nothing to eat. There have been husbands hanging around doing nothing. No work - no gardening. Just waiting for the sunrise and then waiting for the sunset.
My daily allowance sometimes was a quarter dollar or far less. Part of it needed to be saved for the Internet to answer eMails and sometimes to write newsletters. So i went into the ocean to show others how to catch seafood given by God - locals here love to eat seafood but most have lost all skills to catch by hand or search for clams or oysters. I showed them by doing it with and for them - one night late i came home and one of the mothers was hungry - it was around midnight - so i went to search for some clams in shallow water - no need for eyes - you feel them. 2 hours later we had a diner for her and her baby and some others as well. She had a brother about 20 years old - he too was hungry but too lazy to do anything at all in day time except hanging around and sometimes learning to play guitar.
There is a time for music - AFTER work - after all have to eat - but first of all always is to supply all needs to have all happy in their body - then it is time for the inside - the soul and heart. First the basis of life - then the fun part of life - each day and eternally. Fun time is when all are happy each day - as happy as possible. All are responsible to contribute actively to their own happiness - but sometimes there is a need for one to show them, to go ahead, to be shepherd.
Another day i went into nearby jungle - nearby means less than 5 km one way to walk - to collect young bamboo sprouts - enough for all hungry ones in the house.
Hans and Liesel showed me many sources of food - even wild sources open to all - much of these wild food is very nutritious and very delicious and healthy. But you have to go out into mountains and forests or fields to collect it. Some out on this planet expect food to grow in their kitchen - may be even in their mouth ?? ... or in their stomach ... ???
There is nothing for free on this planet. But for every step you make ahead - God helps you many steps ...
The greater your own efforts the more blessings you receive. It is like in Kriya Yoga - if you do 100 % of all maximum - then you get infinite on top of your own efforts - however if you do little you may get little or nothing.
Your life here on earth is what you make out of your life. You have a sandbox and can build a castle of love - or keep it a sandbox for cats and dogs.
God gave us all heaven - hence nothing on earth was intended to be !!! Earth is an emergency solution that needed to be created by God because of our very own separation and splitting up into thousands of groups and ego cultures.
When God created earth - he created and thus gave us:
That is God made !!! and nothing else !!!
However what we have now ... factories polluting air and water and soil, armies controlling border or entire countries, rich ones possessing or abusing poor ones, ... shops and cars and air crafts ...
That all is man made !!!
All these things may sometimes be used for SOME benefit - however almost all of it has at the very same time always a strong destructive component within.
For example a car - of course a car can be used to go to work - of course no work no money no honey !
But each such vehicle always has a strong destructive component. Pollution of air, construction and recycling of any given vehicle today always contributes to further pollution. Think of all the chemical products needed to manufacture a car today and its ill making effects on those breathing all day for years or even a full lifetime all these toxic vapors ...
and the pollution created again to dismantle or melt down or dispose of all parts of an old vehicle.
All such is man made - never God made. God gave us the potential to return home without or before polluting all planet. God reached out for us on earth to help us return on a path of love before we started world wars and nuclear bombs.
All the wars all the separation among mankind that also separates us from our beloved ones and hence is a very substantial source of our very own LONELINESS and missing the unseen but still felt or remembered in our hearts and souls, the lost one - the one and only !!!
All this and much more is man made and never God given. God gave us freedom to chose between destructive or constructive solutions - God gave us the power to create solutions of love - and all of them are from within and only can be found and used to free us in a far more simple and hence far more loving life.
The more simply your life the more efficient all your efforts toward your returning home. At home there is far more wisdom and more love and freedom to learn much more efficiently than ever here on earth. But first we have to grow in our heart to be strong or hungry for love enough to make a clear instant decision FOR God and thus FOR love.
At the age of 22 or so i once had an excellent job in computer programming. Highly paid and many chances for much higher pay - but it included a contract to be bound for 4 years. 4 years slave of a company ?
N E V E R !!
You want to know what i did ?
I quit on the very last day of our trial period when quitting instantly still is possible without having to pay penalty. Because that was the the contract - to pay for each year leaving before the end of 4 years. I quit free of charge and the very same very last day 3 others with me. All too strong to be slaves of money and job. No matter how exciting and attractive such a company may be.
That company was the greatest we had in Switzerland and our boss even wanted to prohibit coming to work with slippers in hot summer days !
Ties and coat ? Yes - of course i love silk ties - with open shirt and down half way - because in one of my earlier incarnation i was hang - hence i love freedom around my neck -
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i love ties and formal wear - but when i enjoy it and how i enjoy it and never when a boss orders it. All has its best time and occasion - when done in freedom and out of your very own heart and soul.
One other day in the morning hours at work - 1977 - i had an excellent job as electronic technician with a best friend - Walter - as "boss". True love and friendship from man to man. That day i got a Telex from the organization to go call back. I planned to answer after my working hours. A few hours hours later - early afternoon i got another Telex to call back asap. I called - and they basked me if i could go on another mission to another country in war - Lebanon - asap ?
Could i ? Of course, because i had a job with a human !!! Walter always was best friend - and he had a childhood and young years similar to mine - adventurous and all self made and self learned. I was the only one doing all the technical work and repair - there was no replacement existing. It had to be created - he asked one who was on my job before my time to come back - and hence he created a solution and i left almost instantly - apartment quit and prepaid for the legal time needed. Taxes paid to leave country - good bye to all and a very few days later only i was in the airplane to Lebanon via Damascus.
The "legal" time for all would have been a months or more. But ... all restrictions are to proof your strength above any man made limits, laws, borders and restrictions.
If you want to be free you need to love your self free and and walk out and away from those wanting to holding you back - because FREEDOM is divine and FREEDOM is one of the few things on earth that really is God GIVEN to be used if ever you want to be happy.
Nothing on earth is given to you - you have to create it, yourself all alone, with your own money, your own efforts, your own strength, your own brain and common sense - with your own heart and soul.
Only those who ARE free can make happy - only those who are strong can make happy. How ever could an angel wife make her husband happy if she is scared of all, too weak to walk across all resistance away from all boundaries that mankind on earth with all ego has created.
God has created unity - do we have unity on earth ?? so what please on earth is God made ??? What needs to be done first - the divine part God made or the ego part mankind made ?
Up to you - but stop whining if you prefer to be weak and to the path of egos. To be free you need to talk with those who have your soul and body in contract - they want to know what your plans and why - you have to tell ALL - the FULL truth. If love is the reason - if a partner is the reason - if God is the reason - YOU have to TELL in clear language exactly why you want to go and where you want to go and when you want to go - ASAP - NOW. And if you have the courage to do so - then they FEEL your strength inside coming into your outside as well and they know they have to let you go else you go anyway.
3 weeks before i attained legal age - 1971 - in Switzerland that was 20 during my time - one Friday mid April i informed Hans that tomorrow, Saturday i need his car. He asked why - i answered " i leave home and go" i had arrangements for a room - rent CHF 95 a months - my salary 136 CHF per months. Another few months to learn before apprenticeship was finished. And of course there have been opportunities to earn more money and to be happy immediately.
Hans had no choice - there was no time to contact a court or lawyer to leave home before having legal age. No court in Switzerland could have done something within 3 weeks. Hence the other day i got the car - move about 4 suitcases - 100 kg - of mostly "junk" out with me - mostly books ... an left home and never returned for the next 7 years.
May 9th 1971 i had legal age and as a birthday gift i got a very sexy and horny girl friend my age. A gift from God. ... but i had to earn it first after the first night of dancing. All you need you have to earn or love for. More about that may be later. Because some of the girls and men out there may need extra kick to know how much effort is possible and needed to BE HAPPY.
Freedom, love and peace and all the adventures on this planet were far too exciting, too pleasant to beautiful and there was much to learn and to do and to help - too much to hang around in a home like hell within hell.
All i ever wanted was LOVE - all you need for love is freedom - freedom is the result of strength - in your heart and body as well. A girl at least needs enough strength to walk into an airplane or out of school or to BOW to a boss and beg for freedom and if denied to simply walk into freedom.
HERE in the Philippines it is very common that girls run away from home if they want freedom or are in love and want to be happy. Because here they all pray to God and know God is love - God helps the poor ones, the weak ones, the slaves to walk them into freedom. Here most of all have true love for God and true faith in the power of love from God.
Here in the Philippines most girls are very smart - they know that is is far much easier to be happy with the right one, and the right one often is 40 - 50 years older - hence they have a saying "age doesn't matter" only love matters. When they say it - they know what they say and they smile when they say it. Because they are wild, sweet and strong to love whoever they want to love whoever is God given to them.
Who ever you are, what ever you are, where ever you are - all that matters is love. God is love and God wants you all to be free and happy - here and now. But you have to take what belongs to you. Love and freedom. You have to re-created all the circumstances needed to be in love and happy forever. You have to CREATE your solutions. At least HERE on earth - then you are strong enough to maintain all happiness and love for ever and ever.
If you grow out of darkness into light then there will be but light - because your roots in God and love are stronger than any darkness - your love stronger than all evil forces here and even stronger than devil.