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In the nineties i had a small clinic ( Naturheilpraxis ) near Munich and one day a young woman - Monika - about 28 years old came as a new patient to me. On crutches and in the late stadium of cancer after years of most unsuccessful treatment by regular medicine. Breast cancer. She had her breast cancer already a few years and had already by that time
We started first treatment before talking much. Acupuncture, spiritual healing and herbal therapy. And while continuing the treatment day after day to establish first of all a state of painlessness - we talked more and more as we had time. We had long and tiring sessions - usually two hours at a time.
She had both her ovaries totally killed by an overdoses of radiation therapy to prevent hormone production in her ovaries. Her body - specially lower section was partially like a peace of shit - all death body parts only. Just a piece of a cadaver somehow still open for blood circulation. But nothing really alive ! An aura of death body in all her lower section. Of course you can successfully kill cancer that way by chemotherapy and radiation therapy - in the worst of all cases you simply have to kill all body to kill all cancer successfully - from the point of medical view.
One of the first thing i told her was that for healing to be possible she would have to become woman again first. i.e. A full healing of her killed ovaries and all lower body cells was mandatory to reestablish health. And as we continued treatment on a daily or almost daily basis - sometimes even twice a day - we very soon analyzed what the true root cause of her problem was. No healing without healing of the cause of such a severe illness. She was in full emotional war against her physical father. Her mother was German - her father from an Arab country - i belief it was Jordan. She sentenced him guilty for leaving the family and was in full emotional rejection and war against him. She fully denied forgiveness, rejected any attempt to even start to understand both parties - his point as well as the possibility that the mother also may have contributed to the failure of the marriage and rejected any meeting or correspondence with him. She was actually pretty - before the breast amputation of course, now she only had a plastic prosthesis to pretend still being female to the outside world- and still was extremely stubborn and proud - female pride. Nothing has changed during the years of cancer. Loss of breast and extreme pain and severe various treatments.
I told her very very early that she needs to change - immediately and one of the very first step needs to be to get in direct contact with her father and ask him to come and see her.
I told her progress and change is necessary immediately without any delay. She however wanted to bargain and ask me to make progress in small steps only.
I told her that her cancer is making progress in big steps and her small steps of progress may be far less than needed for healing. Less progress and the destruction by her cancer. Her cancer being only resulting from her full rejection of a near and loving person as a result of short sightedness and female pride. No other cause at all - just one severe intense vector force of ego is far enough to fully destroy a human body and would be even enough to fully destroy a soul forever.
After a very few weeks she was almost entirely painless in all body - and hence had peace of mind needed to clearly think - without the mind blurring pain killers - a condition needed to get in peace and work on solving emotional problems of such great intensity and destructive severity. She was doing so much better that she accepted my advice to go on a vacation in nature - she went for a months to Greek - with her husband. To have more time for love and silence to get in inner peace with all.
By the time she came back she still refused to write her father - and it took a few months until she started a letter. Too late for any meeting. Too small were all her steps toward even beginning the very first true step of reconciliation with her father - too late to love him even single time as a proof for readiness to forgive, to understand, to accept in love what is.
Soon after her return from the vacation she went for a routine inspection and preparation for another chemotherapy to a hospital for an extended weekend and died of kidney failure one night. Her death by kidney failure was certainly very short and little pain compared to a full death as a result of all the metastasis all over her body. Her death of kidney failure was an act of grace and mercy by God as compared to the death by cancer caused and outstanding by her very own ego and female rejection of love toward her father. Healing makes no sense at all as long as the destructive behavior continues and as long as no sincere readiness to fully and completely solve all the causes in love and only in love.
The female breast is an organ linked to the secondary chakra needed to GIVE female love. Denial to give love such as caused by most extreme female pride results in breast cancer, amputation of the breast and quiet often in death. What is the spiritual lesson of breast cancer resulting in removal of one or both breasts ? Breasts often are used and abused to attract men, an "object" of beauty and pride by women. Having one or both removed clearly declares any such patient as being no woman - as being a human denying to GIVE love. And thus helps sometime to make such soul humble during the course of time. Sometimes like in this case it very obviously was far insufficient to create a sincere desire to get in peace - even the thought of having a high chance of dying within the coming months changed virtually nothing at all in that young girl. Most likely totally different situations need to be created in the future to assist her in learning to truly love and forgive and give love to all including to males in God's creation. Her physical father is her true eternal partner. One day they may meet again - possibly in a future incarnation or now - without a body - learning goes on with or without a body. Life is eternal and learning processes, loving processes and processes of dissolving in love are existing at all levels.
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