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In the late nineties, at the age of about 70 years during one of the very few visits and therapies she received - and accepted - Liesel confessed to me that at absolutely no time in her entire life she ever loved Hans !
Even before marriage or in early years of marriage ...
All her life was a marriage of revenge, use and abuse of Hans as a husband and worker to achieve her goals - possessing him to prevent him from becoming happy by anyone else. There surely would have been Millions of other women that might have been more suitable to give him peace and love and happiness than Liesel ever gave. She gave absolutely Zero to him and too almost all she ever could.
Who to blame ?
Of course Hans !!! He was too weak to be real man. He was mother-son until his late twenties. Obeying his mother, doing what she wanted and how she wanted. He was working on his fathers farm in Germany until just before marriage. No experience on his own, no home of his own.
How strong and how stingy his mother was - and how weak he was shall be explained from the following small story.
My grandfather - Emil was strong - very strong in his body and he had courage facing strong man and hard work. In world war one he served in Siberia under the German army despite being swiss by citizenship - he was living most of his life in Germany and there he owned a small but clean and well maintained farm. During very early childhood i spent many weeks or months on his farm while Liesel spent time away from family in hospitals.
Emil's wife - my grandmother - was so stingy, she made lots of preserves from berries from their own land. Lots of strawberry preserve. All of it kept locked in the bed room, sometimes for many years up to 5 or more years ... sometimes the preserve was rotten before being allowed to be eaten. Only at special occasion did she give a glass of home made preserve to her family. She had plenty of it and each year there was plenty to be made again. On any farm all basic food, fruits and berries always are available in abundance and largely sufficient to share with many !!!
One day she left home for several hours and Hans and Emil decided to steal preserve from grandmother and eat it - Hans took a ladder to climb up through the window into the bedroom to steal a glass of preserve and the two men eat it. The door to the bedroom was locked by grandmother to prevent her family to take anything from there .... that's why they had to sneak in like thieves into their own bedroom in their own family home !!!
Now we have 2 old stupid strong men - Hans and Emil - too coward and too stupid to know how to handle grandmother. Too weak to take what they needed from their very own farm. When she came home - she realized that preserve was stolen by her 2 men ...
Why ?
Hans forgot to remove the ladder from the window !! Stupidity is the result of missing flow of love !!! Of course both these two strong adult men had to undergo a violent nasty thunderstorm from grandmother, that is what both of them deserved in full as a result of being too weak to handle grandmother with firm and strong love. No woman on earth ever can be happy with a weak or coward husband !!! Hence she sometimes gets nasty to provocate - hoping for growth and strength to occur.
You see he was so weak and let himself manipulate by his very own stingy mother - so did his father. All live long. Many decades until they died.
A weak person is an ideal victim for abusers like Liesel. She knew that and used him to fulfill all her projects and earn money. To have him work to fulfill her dreams. Later in my teenage years and specially late teenage years she earned more and more without giving anything at all to Hans except basic food and basic needs to live. When he went down to the village he had to ask Liesel for money - she kept all. She gave him an amount just little more than the planned purchase and when he return back took all change back - checked the amount to see if nothing was missing.
We are talking about an amount like 20 to 30 swiss francs he received for the purchase and a few coins or so change he had after making all purchase.
By that time they earned already more than 1000 CHF a months, soon later much much more more up to 10'000 CHF a months - back in the seventies that was a huge amount.
No money on earth ever can buy love - only love can create love if readiness exists to give all love needed and accept all love offered.
By the time i left home - Liesel had secret savings of:
Hans knew nothing at all from all that money, returned all the change after each purchase, never went on any vacation and had zero fun all life while with Liesel.
He was just a slave - working for his wife - being used and abused by his ETERNAL wife - for absolutely zero love. Because Liesel was and is his eternal partner. And for centuries they have been in war against each other. Empty of love for each other - empty of love for anyone else. Nothing but profit in mind. Profit from everything they could use to make or increase profits, such as animals, nature, plants, making profits from others, weaker ones, less skilled ones, less wise ones.
And Liesel confessed that she never loved Hans at all.
In my late teenage years I prearranged divorce and all situation occurred to make divorce possible. Liesel had a boyfriend in Mallorca, went on vacation there each year and soon later - after i left "home" for good they divorced. And Hans paid again - because he had no knowledge of all the money she already had ... as a result he had to work and earn money 5 years beyond pension age of 65 years - until the age of 70 he was going to work almost full time in addition to his daily farm work.
After divorce - many years later - Liesel tried to trick me to go living with Hans on his farm - she wanted a new back-door to come back onto his new farm in Zuzgen and via my presence to get a reason to be there or visit frequently. I realized her dirty plans and told her to stay away from him for a long long time. He was already happy and married again - far more happy than any time ever before. At the age of 70 he still was sitting side by side in peace with his new wife, gentle hug and watching peacefully TV together. During the few brief visits at his new farm i never heard him shouting or being angry. He was apparently far more gentle than ever before and far more happy than ever before. And it was time to protect him against any outside influence from Liesel for a long while.
However soon later on an other occasion Liesel confessed me that NOW - decades after their divorce - after several partnerships of a few years each that she had - his face - Hans' face is very loving and that now she could return to him. But YOU remember - i said earlier that Liesel was almost blind. Officially she was 100% blind on one eye and 90% blind on the other. So how can she see such details ? She "saw" many times before details ... and i witnessed quietly. She was too pride to say anyone "love me please" or "i love you" she played ill or even handicapped to attract care and attention from others - to attract indirect love without having to give love first. Millions of pride women do that here and now these very days - men as well !!!
To reach this point of maturity and reduction of ego Liesel had to undergo a near full lifetime of pain and illnesses. At the age of 16 or 17 already she was half body paralyzed - a few years later she started to have more and more serious eye problems and getting more and more blind, in addition of course as a direct result of denying any love to Hans and rejecting any love from Hans - she had all the usual surgery, on ovary partially removed, some time later all, then the other, then all uterus, ... dozens of hospitalizations, weeks and months in clinics and hospitals all life long. Karma always is efficient - the path of karma - purely self selected is one of the most powerful paths and most efficient paths for all NON-loving humans. Liesel is an absolute proof of the success of extreme pain and extreme suffering resulting in the readiness to love and be in peace.
Another confession from Liesel came also in the late nineties. She wanted to sell her apartment in Mallorca. But for some reason it was known to the authorities there that she purchased that apartment while being married. To be allowed to sell it she needed written agreement from her divorced ex-husband - from Hans that he agrees to the sell of her apartment.
Hence she had to confess him all about at least that part of illegal money she stole from all family.
Hans signed. Liesel sold. And every once in a while they called each other by phone or even met for a coffee or so.
Of course i could also blame Liesel for being godless, loveless, greedy and stingy and cruel and far more all at once. But he was the one stupid enough to get married to her without any proof of absolute love BEFORE their marriage. Love needs to be proven - instantly before marriage and every day of life. Any man on earth is fully responsible to grow strong far far beyond any possible obstacle of life. Far beyond any possible restriction or authorities on earth. A man is responsible to become wise and spiritual and hence strong in his heart and body.
Hans failed to do so and allowed Liesel to play ego play all life long and long time before.
Now Liesel has realized many or most of her mistakes. She was missing strong love from a strong man. She was missing strong father love first as her mother refused to tell her the name of her physical father. Hence she never received father love of any kind. And hence she never had what she needed to become female. It is the mother-love of a sweet female spiritual mother that makes a boy strong male man and it is the strong wise and gentle father love of a spiritual father that makes a girl sweet like an angel. If in both all is missing - then disaster results and pain in all their own partnerships - because both of hem forget to invest in rue spiritual development. Besides all the almost daily quarrels and physical fighting going on - there was no time and no space for God in their heart and home. Only time to make profits and save at the expense of others.
Now in her very latest years Liesel learned all the necessary lessons - and dissolve from visit to visit i made more and more of all her attachments to any physical project on earth. And after she did all that and also shared with several non-relatives some of the remaining savings, her soul separated from her body and went home to - God. To learn all that still remains to be learn. All karma has been dissolved as an act of grace and love. To allow peace and love to prosper in the future. To dissolve all was the only chance for a possible restart.
Who is responsible finally ?
Me - because she is my spiritual daughter who got out of control - in freedom given to all many got lost in their pride, in their stinginess, in their greed, in their selfish projects. The one granting freedom is the one accepting ultimate and absolute responsibility - eternally and infinitely. To make and end to all that was one of the only reason to incarnate exactly there in that cruel family-war between two eternal lovers. The one giving freedom to all is the one accepting responsibility for abuse of such divine freedom by anyone or all !!! Eternally.
Freedom is the greatest proof of love and most valuable gift you ever can have - use it wisely and with love !
Once Liesel was very beautiful - like so many proud women of these days on earth. After her soul has been loved free - she return once into her body and called me - the very first time in this entire incarnation with a truly angel like voice - caring and loving. A proof that solutions of love DO work - even in the most extreme possible cases of entire creation. Now her soul is regaining the very same inner beauty as a reflection of the beauty of her love potential - healed by God's love.
Her physical body is slowly decaying alive but of no big spiritual importance anymore - the reason why she was denied to totally drop her body - she forget to fully give her savings and property away. She still was attached to some secret savings account here and there. But at least she arranged early for all expenses of her funeral - 10'000 swiss francs cash in a vase plus 3 kg of gold in that vase to pay for all expenses for cleaning up her apartment after her body dies and for funeral expenses of a cremation without a grave - she asked the ash to be thrown into nature - in Switzerland such funeral is possible and very reasonable. Who ever does all the cleanup may be owner. And no one but my father and me knows about ( my father = God !!! ). Whatever happens shall be fine to all of us.
The essence of all that - if people have no living examples during childhood and later in life - then most fail to do it better than their parents. Godunion is the only way to heal all souls again and teach all how to be partner for eternity. More truly spiritual parents and living examples in all neighborhood could assist while working and loving toward oneness with God.
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