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Many years again and again different people have asked questions about my life. In 2000 i already started this text with many dozens of chapters - but the one and a half years without computer made it all lost and a second priority after all the spiritual texts and teachings needed. There was never time for personal things - too many spiritual texts needed first to be written for the benefit of all. Now there is some time and hence i restart again - in different style than actually started in 2000 - just excerpts - experiences here and there from various parts of my life.
For some however it might be a motivation or even inspiration. May it be so !
To make your understanding clear and help you on your path of love to God here a few definitions and names first:
My physical father's name is Hans - to make it clear and easy to distinguish between his and my first name, i write his name first letter in uppercase as opposed to my first name i usually write all lowercase. My physical mother' name is Liesel.
Since many years i use to call my physical parents by their names as they never truly ever behaved as loving parents.
Many God seekers think that spiritual souls must be different or grow up in special circumstances - however i can assure you that most truly God oriented souls incarnate in very normal situations and more often in poor families than in well situated families.
My life was no different and actually is the life of one out of billions on this planet. My body has been created by my parents while they where extremely poor and were still sleeping on straw. No bed, no real furniture -only one very small apartment -dark, in a small village in Switzerland.
Growing up in a family without much school education but having to work all the way up in life is a great advantage over those being born in rich families. I saw what work means and learned to work -all children love to work and love to copy their parents. Since my parents had to be innovative and creative to survive they had to accept the challenges and chances given to the very poorest ones on this planet.
And they really did !
I never saw my physical mother or physical father refusing any kind of work whatsoever. Both of them at some time were working shift day or night - and after work they continued to work at home -often for many hours and they never complained about life at all. My physical mother Liesel had only some 5 years of elementary education while my physical father Hans had some 8 years of elementary school. Both had no high school and no professional training or qualifications of any kind. All they ever had or knew or did was self studied during the course of life as needed in real life to improve or to survive. Hans was working construction as welder, factory and in gypsum (plaster) mining ... some of the hardest and most dangerous work for health. Dirty and working shifts -he never complained, he never asked for more. He was working as good as he could and i never remember anytime any of his employers to ever complain. As far as i ever remember he never got fired. He quit on his own when he was ready to move on and up in his life.
Same applies to Liesel. She was working shift. She was working in the garden at home and whatever opportunities where available to gain some extra money for the family and always ready to move up and improve the family economic situation year after year.
Hence growing up in a poor family gives you far more opportunities to learn the real important stuff for life -the real important stuff is far beyond graduation stuff and maths -beyond algebra and physics. Its about survival by doing something productive, something the rich ones need as well as all others.
After the first two years we moved to another small but very friendly and sunny city Klingnau -into an old house my parents purchased. The house was situated just at the upper border of the last houses toward the cities grape yards on a steep hill. We too had a small grape yard, to provide to grape juice, wine, vinegar and some for selling. We had about half a hectare of land may be a little more -in addition my parents leased a similar size of land for more garden. My parents grew just everything that was possible to grow on your own land. It made survival much easier as on such a huge peace of garden of course you always can produce almost all you ever need for a healthy and natural life plus having sufficient to share, give away or sell to provide for additional income.
We had goats and sold some milk, sheep for our own wool, rabbits, chicken -and of course we also where hatching chicken eggs in a machine to sell the small chicken, ducks, dogs - for breathing and selling the puppies.
Hence my parents had all meat for eating from the many animals they kept and milk, eggs and in our large garden we grew a very wide variety of vegetables and berries - blackberries, strawberries, raspberries, gooseberries, red currant and black currant, walnuts, apples and plums.
And ...
we had plenty of flowers - roses and gladiolus and many others in our garden. Almost year round with the exception of wintertime. Enough to give away or sell some times. I love flowers and i loved to go out into the wild blossoming fields to collect wild flowers since my earliest childhood.
As you see i grew up on a tiny micro-farm - something very ideal for any family and possible in almost any country. I learned to work in garden as early as about 4 years - watched my parents doing things and did it as well. Children always copy their parent and all adults around. It is the easiest, most efficient and cheapest way of teaching -being a sample for your children and neighbors as well. I grew up in nature learning all that is needed to live from nature in my very earliest years of life and that was one of the most valuable lessons my parents could offer me. It prepared me to be happy with the current situation and learn to always do the very best out of everything. My parents never gave up or resigned in any situation -they probably had no knowledge of such word in their mind.
My parents did all the construction and renewal of the old house - year after year they invested all savings in construction material and did all the work on their own. A few times they needed help - hence friends came by for a few hours or days to share their expertise in a field my parents had no experience. As life went on they learned more and more and could do more of the upcoming work on their very own.
They were successful in all they did. Why ? Because they learned it all from scratch and paid it all cash from their own and very hard and dirty work earned money - hence they did all carefully and whatever you do carefully always succeeds. It's that easy in life !
Whatever you get for free you may loose as fast as you got it -whatever you had to work hard for or pay for with your own money you may keep and maintain easily even for for eternity. My parent never believed in giving away for free and i had to buy or work for all i ever had equally hard all my life. They had to pay for all - always in cash and never had any relationships or contacts for business to make their life easier. The life of my parents was fully focused on material aspects of life, on making profits from nature, from animals, using whatever available to turn it into profit.
In April 1961 - At my age of 10 we moved to Oberhof, a small village at that time some 394 people -to a very old and totally rotten farm some 3 km out of the village on a shadow hill -but now we had some 9.6 hectares of land. Mostly steep hill. Cows, goats, sheep, pigs, an approximately 17 years old heavy horse, no water in house, no shower, no bath room, ... and one decade of harder work upcoming, renewing room after room the rotten farm, getting water into kitchen and ... much more.
My parents sold their now nicely looking house in Klingnau for a little more than the farm was. They have been advised by our family doctor to move into nature as Liesel and Hans had more and more serious medical problems and the only chance to avoid a medical health disaster to both of them was giving up their present work and moving into fresh air -into nature.
3 neighbors, one within sight some 500 meters uphill and 2 other ones above our forest in the back of our farm. One of them above our farm soon died of cancer. Their 2 girls went through hell at home for sure. The younger one had no opportunity to go at school her life was too horrible, the older one was about one grade younger than me - she ended her life a very few years later -as far as i know she took an overdoses of rat poison. I certainly can understand her action and God never has a problem with such. She was very nice and always friendly, after the death of her father she was given away to a family in the village, the younger sister was sent to a children's home and mother moved away. Their family was so extremely rotten and 2 girls with terminally ill father and spiritually ill mother - zero love and zero option for future - what else should such a girl do ? I life with zero love is zero worth to be lived. In all village there was no love to the very best of my knowledge. Just work, duty, jealousy, envy, .. and more work. I can remember never having seen one single happy person there. Being happy was no option.
All our neighbors have been very poor and hard working farmers. Such as all village !!! Most of the work done by hand, no machines in the beginning for most of the work. As usual in rural areas.
Love was never an option in their life and was totally absent during all my first 20 years. My physical father was working hard -but stingy like hell. And my physical mother was greedy ...
She grabbed whatever she could. And of course she also grabbed full control of Hans -her husband. Despite the fact that he was working very hard, he actually was kind of weak - physically i was equal in strength at my age of 12. that was a very important turning point in my life - it was the beginning of never again being beaten by Hans ! I was ready and fully decided to make any cruelties an end and fully defend myself when needed and there were occasions when i had to proof to Hans that his time of beating me was over for good and proof my readiness to defend my integrity and freedom as a human being. However i never had a fight - he knew too well that i was growing stronger day by day in such hard conditions and he saw me training and working harder and harder. He was a coward in many ways and coward only fight children or babies but never men of equal or greater strength. He needed a hand gun to hide his weakness and to feel save.
Of course my parents were fighting - verbally and physically -almost daily or every few days at least. Zero love and zero friendship -all that kept them together was the goal to survive and prosper materially and financially. Liesel was very often ill and hospitalized every year or two. Hans was nothing different and i remember that he had many illnesses ever since i remember. Our family doctor prescribed medicine and herbal medicine as well. Hans told me and showed me what kind of herbs he needed to take and i was searching the herbal medicine in the wild fields around for him as needed. I loved to be hours or half days out on my own or with friends - in wild fields, the nearby forest up in the mountain or near the artificial lake.
Now we have been far away from any neighbors and Hans and Liesel - despite the fact that they now had to work even harder still had even more energy to fight their fight. Instant divorce was no option for them since years. They started their fighting as early as ever i can remember - and in fact this fighting was going on for many hundreds of years before whenever they met in any previous incarnation.
School was in the village for the next 2 years. One class room for 5 grades, from grade 4 to 8 all together in one room with one teacher. We have been approximately 18 or so students. Later i went to high school some 9 km downhill - by bicycle.
I think all other kids around had a life like mine.
All working hard on their families farm. Most of them little or no love at all at home. Just a normal family on this planet country side -away from "high society". Doing farmers work, growing tons of vegetables, fruits, potatoes, grain for the cattle and poultry -we had several dozen cherry trees, planted some 450 plum trees with a wide variety of modern plums ( myself i always prefer the old fashioned natural plums God made for me ) and started a pension for dogs and cats and little later for children as well. We had ponies - first one wild Island pony mare, then a small Shetland pony stallion and later more and more. For our guest children.
When i asked my parents once permission to join the boy scouts -their answer was as usual "if you have too much energy, then you work at home !" Same answer for playing football at high school.
There was neither time for love nor for recreation -only work. Basically the rule was simple - first school, then farm work, then when parents were tired school homework.
It was a fine school of life - because it made me strong so early in my life -that i soon felt strong inside as well. Earning my own first real money at the age of 10 -collecting escargots ( edible snails ) every year during spring vacation - usually about 30 kg a day and sold them to the collecting station in a neighbor village Wittnau for about 1.20 CHF per kg, in 1961 this gave me lots of money - for the family account. I collected fire wood, i collected brass shells whenever the military held maneuvers near by or i accepted other jobs for money whenever a job was available - and there were plenty of jobs around ! At 16 i started loading unloading the milk transporter collecting milk from a dozen or so villages and bringing the load to Basel to the dairy factory - each Saturday and Sunday - about 7-8 hrs a day, 15 to 17 tons of milk in cans to 45 kg - that gave me at the beginning 40 CHF a day later 50 CHF a day. Lots of money for a young man. Enough to pay for school and much more. My self earned money was never for me -my parents always took all. That's OK -because when you earn even in very young years your own money and contribution for the family -then you know and are sure that you never live at the expense of your parents. Hence it assures you are free from any dependency. My parents never could ever tell me that they had to pay for anything at all, because i earned so much and worked so much after my age of 10 that for very sure i earned much more than i costed to my parents. After all they gave me some pocket money - each week 5 CHF - a tiny part from what i earned. And they too earned more and more each year ! But fine enough to buy some sweets and in particular chocolate.
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I love swiss chocolate Milka or even better Lindt !! Truly fresh milk chocolate and during my high school years almost daily i ate one full chocolate for lunch ... with fresh white bread ! I love white bread - while many yogi or "spiritual" people eat all this "healthy" and often artificial stuff - all i always ate was what i really loved and as fresh and natural as possible - and all i really did most of my life was to focus on love nothing but love and to grow strong.
My search for love started very soon and my work to grow strong as early. All started in my first decade. My physical parents have been excellent samples for - what to do and what never to do. It all helped me to learn. Whatever they did i learned one way or another. So can you. All.
Now you have a rough background about the frame my life was planned into.
Later more details about important experiences. After decades of traveling and working in some 40 countries i can assure you -my life is one out of billions - except that billions never can publish in Internet because they never made it up ! I have seen millions of people myself, in deepest jungle in Africa or Asia and other parts and have seen millions of people just working for living and learning to love. It is my very true assessment that out in this world among the poor and simple ones who never go to school and never may even read a book or use Internet - there are far more potential saints or true saints, far more truly loving or love learning people than in all the "first world" of high tech countries in Europe or America and similar areas of this planet. More people among the poor ones in rural areas learn efficiently and actively applied love than all the well educated .
Why ? Because graduated people usually focus on money making and material goods rather than on practical work for real life. They spend money on career, for divorces and legal battles and political battles or military, rather than for creating true natural resources or improving existing natural resources of really needed and really useful goods.
With all i have learned at school - i experienced that about 90 % of all school topics serve but to please teacher and government but never are needed in real life.
The very first and only time ever i needed my school certificates was in my forties when i applied for my healers exam in Germany ( Heilpraktiker - Amtsarzt Prüfung ). And of course i could have very well continued my life without that exam ! Never before and never again thereafter - because i burned them all ! All the real and important stuff i needed to know i usually either learned while doing or just before and always from private tuition, evening classes, learning by correspondence or intense crash courses - whatever was best in each individual situation. I usually worked full time while learning and preparing for next step in life. And when i had no money to pay for education - then i worked to receive education. Like one day - years later in my twenties - i wanted to continue my Karate classes and had no money left because i had a terminally ill wife with ill heart and heart surgery coming up and a full time night study by correspondence for electronics - hence i offered my Karate master to clean his toilets, showers and Dojo with all the mirrors after each session ( Dojo = training room for martial arts ) - he accepted and had clean rooms each night after training and i had what i needed ... lessons to grow stronger and reduce ego to zero, lessons to learn to control and to never fight any real physical fight all life except for competition !
It is that easy in life - if you want something then you have to give something and you always succeed if what you give is sufficient - means in abundance and of true value.
Now we go on step by step in various chapters according to useful topics.
Overview all chapters Angels of Love