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A short story about a saint who forgot to be a saint and proof love to her husband all life long and more.
Once in the nineties i had a patient - an old man in his eighties with many problems - many of them being side effects of the many medication he got. Full allergy against milk and milk products that he suffered since his early childhood and again during his marriage - allergy against female love.
Why ?
Female love can be loving, divine or ego love, selfish, possessive as well - specially here on earth. Love can be so extremely selfish that it can make sick and cause rejection by the recipient. His wife was in similar age and very ugly. Huge ugly warts all over her body - except the face. But even the face was old looking and very ugly. Her love was ugly. Possessive, commanding, restricting - her love for him was anything and everything but sweet. Her love for him and others was anything else but female. Causing pain and emotional wounds to him all over the his body. He was suffering from extreme psoriasis and itching all over his body.
At the beginning i made house visits in his home for regular acupuncture. She never left him alone - always watched and controlled what he was doing and how he was doing what he wanted to do. Hence she always was present during any treatment session. So was i - hence one of the first treatment i gave him was to send her away or tell her to shut up for a while and leave him in peace. He love her - he was gentle - very gentle and very forgiving all the time no matter what she did or said and how ugly she was to him in her words or action - he always was silent and peaceful. He absorbed whatever love he received.
On the wall in their living room was a huge painting - almost one meter in size. From her in her younger year at the age of approximately 30 years old. She was very beautiful and her aura had a very great actively radiating spiritual potential by then. She had an aura like a saint just before spiritual awakening. However anyone having developed such spiritual potential still and first of all needs to proof love above and before all else. Anyone needs to undergo very extensive and strict tests on earth in a wide variety of situations to proof divine love. A spiritual potential is like electricity - electricity is neutral by itself - it can be used to kill in an electric chair, or to create uplifting or destructive down-pulling music or can be used very efficiently in electro acupuncture for anesthesia or pain relief.
The same applies for any God given spiritual potential that might be freed at any given time in life. It is your own choice what you do with it and according to your choice you will achieve a particular result.
This women - loved herself and admired herself - hence she had a huge picture from herself in the living room. She love to be admired and adored, to be loved but failed to attract love with her God given sweetness - there was no sweetness in her love at all - only ugliness. And that ugliness flowed through her body all life and malformed her body - to make a clearly distinguished ugly saint out of her. He was a well known scientist and she liked to be in such distinguished circles of high society. She became ugly to show and proof the world how she really is. Ugly - ugly inside and ugly outside - as a result of her very own choices she made repeatedly for many decades - one full lifetime and longer.
Sometimes you find old queens - ugly inside and ugly outside - even nowadays. The outer beauty in a woman always reflects the inner beauty !!! Such as the outer strength of a man always reflects his inner strength of love-potential as well.
Sometimes you find old queens and old women being very beautiful - beautiful inside and beautiful outside - at any age - because some do love all people and serve and help and uplift all people while others do but love their very own picture and self.
That old man died about a year later peacefully - and even after his death was waiting and calling her and missing her love. He still loves her with all his heart despite the ugly love he always received from her. He is her eternal partner and hence loves and loves and nothing but loves her - hoping and waiting to be truly loved one day by his truly eternal partner with sweet love to heal all the injuries her ugly love has created.
Today he still waits on her - many years after his death - in love ... and she misses him more and more and the more she misses him - the more she becomes aware of how little true love she ever gave him.
Soon it's Christmas time on earth as well as there where he waits on her and soon might be happy end for both of them.
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