I really don't know where to begin. I have been dating this girl for 6 years. After two years in the relationship, four months later she cheats on me.
It has been a total of six years together and 4 years after the cheating, I have found it difficult to forget. I still don't trust her fully and we have many arguements over this. I know she really regrets it to this day, but it still doesn't help me.
I love her with all my heart, I would do anything for her. But there are times when I feel down (sad) and resent her at times. Before the cheating, I was a confident person and lacked any jeoulosy. And now! I am the opposite.
Everyone says just leave her. BUT I cannot, I love her so much. She is a great person who has made a terrible mistake.
I know she loves me and would do anything for me. Lately we have been fighting...her last statement to me was "you love me" but "your not in-love with me". What does this mean?!! I have been seeking and thinking about that statement..."your not in-love with me".
I couldn't argue back on this. Why? Well, what does your not in-love mean? How am I suppose to feel or not feel, to be in-love with someone? I guess I am confused about this statement. I love her and cherish her and would do anything for her. I would even give my life to her to save hers. IS this not in-love?
Also, our sex life sucks! But thats another issue, and maybe my doing.
Please help me to get over this bump in my life. I want to make this work. I would like to marry her but I will not propose until I feel good about myself and I can forgive and forget.
Thank you for your time and your insite.
David