Beloved Gurudeva,

As you know I am learning Kung-Fu to become physically stronger. After that mail, where I asked the instructor to be strict on me, he has become very strict on me. During the class I wish the class to get over fast as it is so tough for me, which happens generally on an average 45 minutes. After class I feel great. But I have realized how far I need to go to become really stronger. I walk to the Kung-Fu class and back, to and fro total the distance is around 8 km. The class happens five days a week.

Beside, I am also learning swimming. Now somehow I am convinced that I can never swim long distance, say 1 KM, ever. The whole world around me can easily float (in sweet water) but I can’t. I don’t leave any chance to whine about it to God. But I still continue, because if I leave then there is no hope, if I continue at least the hope remains I will be a good swimmer which will allow me to involve in other Water sport.

On the way to Kung-Fu class there is Thai-Chi & Dahn-Yoga center. I joined the morning class there. I attend few classes, now I am not sure if I continue it. There are many questions I have on it.
Do you think Thai-Chi is helpful? I mean would you recommend it? In Thai-Chi, they say the Svadhistana chakra as the main chakra !!! That is why I doubt the science behind the Thai-Chi.

The instructor there told me that I have lots of blockage in intestine area, after she did some massage in my belly near the naval area? Actually I too felt that it is possible. She told me because of this reason I will not be able to take a deep breath. Actually this is true I am unable to keep my breath for long time. Is it true? If yes then can you please tell me what all I should do to remove the blockage as soon as possible?

I also realized why you hinted me that I have fighting mood. I fight within my mind whenever somebody criticizes me or my work, give bad feedback, humiliate me etc. Since that remain in mind and generally does not surface in my action, I never realized that.

With love,
gopu