Dearest Hans,

I understand. I get in trouble when my mind drifts from focusing on God and love and starts wool-gathering. I think about my clients who are so fundamentally disturbed my heart breaks and get angry that they suffer so much. Then I ruminate on their Karma, think of my own faults and I'm off and running in entirely the wrong direction. When I pull myself up, I say the God prayer and start again from there. I do think the effort is worth it. I feel myself opening to life and people in a way I find hard to describe. And I am very grateful that I have found work I am good at that gives me so many opportunities to be of service.

I was hesitant to post more often because I didn't want to "bother" you, even though you told me in a previous post that questions never bother. But now I realize that was very foolish and prideful of me. Since God is my Guru, I have come to think of you as my technical adviser and had I consulted you more frequently I could have cleared up these difficulties sooner.

With all love,
Suzanne

P.S.
Did read your blog about a plane trip you took during the last typhoon in the Phillippines. Is that the one you were referring to? It was very interesting to me because shortly before I rtead it, we had returned from Italy. During that trip I pretty much lost my fear of flying by trusting God to hold me up and if the plane was going to go down, to give me the opportunity to call on his love rather than be paralysed by fear, As you said in the blog, "Angels fly."