Just another Christmas day like 364 other days this year
my angels are hungry
my angels love just anything new or exciting i realized long time ago

today was another Christmas dinner - this time at their place - i loved
that much more than here at bali hai
the menu was new and totally different - never done before
we all remember a few days ago the order they had for today's dinner

sometimes God knows his children better than they know themselves
i bought a few dozen kilo of various things to cook
all they ordered but many other things on top to satisfy their hunger
for delicious home made gourmet food

so i got plenty of ..

grapes
mandarins - local and imported
bananas
apples
mango
papaya
grapefruit
chicken
blue marlin
shells
small fish
tomatoes
different vegetables
different herbal spices
milk
oat
and much more

then we started with many different courses all at once

apple pancakes with cinnamon sugar
banana pancakes with cinnamon sugar

bananas and mango flambes with brown sugar - this one just for the big
kitchen angels helping me cutting all vegetables and fruits.. they never
saw a pan on fire with rum - and all appeared delicious and was eaten in
minutes

blue marlin in red wine tomato sauce with sweet red pepper
chicken in coconut curry with ginger and lemon leaves - this one for the
big boys who ordered spicy food

shells in vegetable soup with tomatoes
tomatoes with celery

fresh muesli - about 10 kg of it ...

fresh pop corn choco flavor

2 hours of shopping in the market
4 hours of cooking
2 hours of eating while cooking
surrounded by smiling and loving angels all the time
= lots of fun all together
and at the end of the day i had lots of vegetables, fruits, oat and blue
marlin left for tomorrow's cooking
as i thought already before
they order ONE thing
and as soon as they smell sweets
most eat mountains of sweets and forget about all else
with the exception of some shells all i cooked was gone - eaten up by
hungry angels

next time i may do far more pancakes and muesli
for all of them it was the first time in life today
by the end of all shopping i was surprised to see that all together was
just some 100 us$ for 74 hungry angels from 4 to 20+ yrs
and i always selected the best of anything i needed

if you like it - then come and join us
they asked already if i cook tomorrow again ...

of course we had no time for recording of more happy songs
another time we do that for you - and for me as the pleasure of their
singing may be mostly mine
they love to sing - i love their singing
i love to cook - they love my cooking

i got my Google adsense check today - after another 20 or so waiting
until the cash is actually available
then we do more shopping and cooking

if you now are a little envious of the delicious food they all enjoyed
may be that's a trick to get you here .. and done on purpose

now i am hungry for my lunch - then it's working time again
have fun

love and bliss

hans

*personality disorder "day dreaming"

to be precise - day dreaming is no real personality disorder
it's a life disorder - a disorder of entire life and living condition -
outside conditions !!
but such was the question brought to me minutes ago ...

what is the reason for daydreaming ?
simple and straight forward
ONE reason:
lack of love in life
lack of love in the family
lack of love in the environment where day dreaming takes places

in an environment where we encounter and experience the opposite of what
our heart and soul loves, needs and longs for
in such an environment our spiritual being loves to escape - such is the
nature of day dreaming
day dreaming is an attempt to project your own astral body or the entire
metaphysical body OUT of your physical body to escape the violent
environment - to dive into love or into an environment we experience as
pleasant or loving

day dreaming is a serious warning that the surrounding environment
SHOULD be made much more loving
day dreaming children often may have difficulties in learning or use far
more time for home work or learning than other children
because they are "out of mind" - away from their body at places they
love, at places they are happy

day dreaming hence is a warning that something essential needs to be
changed or adjusted in life toward a truly loving situation
it may require a divorce
a new partner
a new job
a new location
a new neighborhood
...

something that much loving that it causes attraction
sweet nectar attracts butterflies
sweet love attracts humans ...

ugly behavior makes people go away
but if your body is forced to stay
then they escape by day dreaming
by projecting their perception, awareness and entire spiritual body far
away into a loving natural environment
leaving but a weak link to the body
a weak link that may cause the day dreamer to reply delayed or after
repeated questions or calls
or to be completely mentally absent
because totally OUT of body

love and bliss

hans
*

All or none
- either you love all my angels or none
- how many ?
i never can count them, they all are too wild and too loving to be
counted - but i know when one is missing ...

Many times in my life i have been confronted with *spiritual* persons or
yogi who wanted to withdraw from material life - withdraw from earthly
life, withdraw from all spiritual lessons and stop learning, stop
working, stop loving ...
to spend the remainder of life in a retreat or ashram - some wanted to
stay with me
just to pray and meditate all life long ...

however
my ashram is the real world
that is the place to prove love
this very planet with all factories, mines, ships, farms ... mountains
and valleys of life
that is the place to learn love, to prove love and to practice love in
as many different situations as offered by real life amidst all people
around us

if love flows out amidst all others
then you have proven to understand others
then you have proven to yourself and to your loved one that you can
truly love all children you ever have created as well as all children of
your loved one and your best friends and neighbors children

to love all is the essence of our earthly life here and now
the choice is simple and straight
either you can love all or have no love at all
even the smallest amount of TRUE love results i ever increasing love for
all ... for more and more
and finally after a very few years of loving all you FEEL and ultimately
KNOW that you LOVE ALL

for myself its very simple when looking for a partner for life - a
partner for eternal life
she has to love ALL my angels - the 100+ i have here as well as all
others elsewhere
or she may never even enter my heart
the question is simple
do you love ALL or NONE
there is nothing between
all OR none

take all - get me

ONE single being in my father's entire creation i know who can love ALL
- me AND all my wildest angels and sweetest angels
that's my father and so far no one else ever has proven such infinite love

however
some of my disciples expand their own love
to be like father
to love all

what is the saying ...
an apple never falls far from the apple tree .....

but
apples need a long time to ripen and become sweet
a full life time almost

all or none
ask your loved one that question and have him / her prove it
to love ALL you love
or to et none at all

little love never is making happy
little love is the key to a divorce lawyer
but why start something if you can prevent it before it happens ?
test your love and test the love of your loved one
before the first night
within less than the first 24 hrs

when he / she takes ALL
then you are sure you can fall in love - fall into an ocean of love
the ocean of love my father offers me ...
i can never hit - because that ocean has neither bottom nor ceiling
i can hover or fly - swim or dive into his love and always be surrounded
by love and nothing but true love
so do you
because you too are beloved children of my father
his children or my children ... there never is any difference
as he loves what i love and i love what he loves

love is the reason to be
love is the reason to have children
love is the source of all happiness, joy and life

may your heart be filled with infinite love
to take all your loved one has to offer
ALL is better than none
none is the beginning of the end
ALL is the beginning of true love and true life

love and bliss

hans

Two worlds
- angels here angels there
- fighting angels and loving angels
- both are children of God and all are loved by God.
2 worlds that need to join in love and peace to be one family

Monday i had the last group of angels here for dinner
a few days earlier i asked pastor Abraham about singing for my OTHER
family ... the ones poor and simple - living behind the post office
he was thinking and then said yes to my proposal

Monday we went with my Christmas angels to see my other family and to
ask them about our proposal to sing there for all
on the way there i got some food and gave my angels 2 mandarins each to
give away to the small children there

to be Christmas angels seems to please their hearts

when we arrived there we had instantly a crowd of some 50+ people and
the little food was gone in minutes
however
my angels there are different from my Christmas angels
they are wild and since all are living in tough situations of life
all were fighting for food
a totally different world
for pastor Abraham as well as for my angels from the orphanage

2 kind of angels
one has family, mother and or father, may be very simple housing or room,
but little food and simple living condition
parents but each day is a fight to survive
millions here and elsewhere in this world live in similar conditions
exploited by rich ones,
exploited by industry to work at lowest salaries
exploited by real estate business to give away their garden or
agriculture land or beach property for a few peaces of paper called money
and soon later they lack food and no garden around to produce anymore
then when deep down and in trouble
all of them accept any job for any price - even as little as 1-3 $ a day
just to survive with very most basic needs and basic food

in 2001 i lived there in this house for some 3 months and had plenty of
insight into their family and financial / job situations
most are working
half day or more than full day
all are struggling - but still happy and loving
strong because all life was but fight for survival
in a way it reminds me of my parents home during the first 15+ years

what is better
a boy living and growing up in rich family - father and mother owing
several houses, both earning money thousands of $
both spoiling children ...
or
this situation here with my other family ...

on my own body i experienced that tough life made me stronger in my
heart and body
tough life made me creative and productive
tough life made me loving
tough life made me experience the dark side of this planet
and thus tough life created the lasting desire to love and nothing but
to love

while ALL the spoiled ones i know - some of my present disciples included -
- have a tough time in their adult life because they never experienced
REAL life on earth
they never needed to struggle
never needed to share
never needed to hunger
never needed to WORK for living
it all has been given to them
given by rich parents, by social welfare, by governments
by society in social states or countries

hence they all lack the experience of the hard side of real work on earth
thus they all lack humbleness and true love for farmers, minders and
factory workers ...
love for all those doing the real work on earth to provide the true
needs for life

they never had to be strong nor ever to grow stronger and stronger
humans on eternal point of view are like trees
the strongest ones who make it all the way up stay up and live
all others may have to restart and learn again to grow strong enough to
make it all the way up
up to God

to love in all situations of life requires a full and thorough
understanding of society
such true understanding NEEDS to be IN the heart
such can only result from experiencing ALL this planet has to offer as
opposites and extremes
deepest and highest
richest and poorest
toughest and sweetest
having lived among the poorest ones
i know that they are the truly richest ones

i gave them 3 fresh hot BBQ chicken Monday night - to share for the house
they took all into the kitchen
cut it all into small peaces
came out and gave it to ALL
including ALL neighborhood ...

i have no idea whether they kept any for their own house at all as all i
saw was their sharing
like in old times when i was living among them ...

poor in the bank = rich in the heart
tough in life
sweet in love

my angels may need some time to learn to understand such opposite
they all have a different past and different future
but still all need at least a few times to see and experience the other
side of those still learning to be angel for eternity
that was the reason i took them there Monday and that also is the reason
why we go singing there later in a few days or so
the other family also needs to see that even in tough life all is easier
to achieve with sweet love

most of them have tough life because most of them struggle within their
relationship or marriage
lacking true love causes friction and stress resulting in tough behavior
and lack of power of love to solve all their problems in life with a
smile and love

denial of love and rejection of love among husband wife is the cause why
many are far less happy as could be
some even drink ,,, for same reason
life without true sweet love between husband and wife is like a soup
without water or a balloon without air
empty

it is sweet love every day
the permanent true YES between both partners that makes life worthy to
live and worthy to struggle up until nothing but love and sunshine fills
life and hearts of all

after a while - both groups of angels talking and looking at each other
- my Christmas angels holding my hands - looking for shelter
observing all situation with care ...
we went home later in evening - all happy to be in love with each other
all happy to know AND to FEEL that we all are beloved children of God
we arrived at home in the orphanage
and had for the first time a stormy and wild angel welcome
all sweet - but all storming me ... for one full day i was away only
working without seeing them
my angels are spoiled to be loved every day ...

me too i love to love
they know it because i tell them that i love them all
and they always and spontaneously sing "I love you ... " just for fun
... from the bottom of their heart
we had some fruits at home for all
then most wen playing out in the garden late evening for a long time

this time only the biggest angels sat around all others disappeared into
garden
we had a long talk about many things in life
one of the workers just got separated from husband and still has
problems in understanding why

then after long and loving time i wanted silently to sneak out and walk home
but pastor Abraham was somewhere hiding and waiting for me to drive me home
each time we do that some of the children love to join for the ride to
bring me home to my working home at bali hai

today all day busy many things
and soon - its already Wednesday 3 AM .. its cooking time for my angels
shopping and cooking for all
after our dinner at the orphanage another recording session with my
angels is planned
with a little bit of luck i may upload another few songs for you tonight
but may be we are all the time busy playing or singing just for fun
after dinner tonight

love and bliss

hans