When angels help angels

last night - early evening - i came back from San Fernando - i tried to
get the 150 euro for my angels - hoping that they have been converted
into $ on my PayPal account as requested the night before - no reply
could also mean email lost - hence i tried the ATM - the machine meant
"insufficient funds ..."

i returned home with empty hands
just entering the property at home mami Amparo waved to me from an old
tricycle - you remember - the old bakers woman working from early
morning until late night each day and helping God to help the poor ones
in the mountains and all over the beach are here and there ...

she had a basket full of fresh plain croissant, rolls and cinnamon rolls
.- all together about 2-3 kg of fresh bakery
she asked me if i need some
i told her i have no money to buy as i need my limited money for my
hungry loving angels
she gave me all - for my angels
i gave her 800 PHP - half of the money i have left to make sure she has
to eat herself and brought immediately all fresh baker goods to my angels
entering gently to avoid being overrun by all angels at once ...
all were upstairs singing - rehearsal for tonights recording session i
have asked - to offer you some more happy songs from my Christmas angels

a sat downstairs and waited - it just happened to be the last song
then a storming crowd of angels - ...
and i gave all to a few larger angels to share among all
fresh rolls, croissant and 2 small pieces of cinnamon rolls each
and all have been happy
eating fresh rolls - without butter, without jam, without cheese ...
just bread
one pack brown bread sliced as well

all delicious
do you remember the last time you have been happy with plain bread ??

i remember a similar situation when we arrived in the mountains of
Sibillini - after our total of 800 km pilgrimage from Munich to Assisi /
Italy in 1999 ...

one day way up in the mountains of Sibillini - just kilometers away from
the FINAL destination - the last young man left back home - just one
female disciple left and myself ...
eating from what God is given us - it was a fasten walk with minimum
food - and zero money in my pockets
a nature of wild berries - a handful at least - like a true fiesta for
the heart and soul
then another few kilometers and a view downhill into a hidden valley
3 shepherds outside a simple house - one young shepherd
we went down to their shepherd-house
ask for permission to set up our tiny 2 tents
they welcomed us and approved our request and gave us a nice sunny place
some 50 meters away from the house downhill

all 3 shepherds hve been extremely loving and smiling
one younger - about 35 years or so
2 older ones - one around 60 another one older
the oldest already shepherd for a long time - some 2000 years

in the mountains in wilderness there never is hunger
i grew up in the mountains and know mushrooms, plants to eat like
vegetables, ...

all 3 shepherds invited us for dinner
before dinner was ready the potatoes where ready - boiled potatoes in
the skin
we eat a potato - just potato and salt
the best potato i ever had
it came from the bottom of the heart of angels
angels can be male or female ...

later we stayed some 2 weeks there and we 2 were busy finding berries,
herbal teas, fire wood and more to accumulate for the time after our visit
and the food to offer a different gourmet kitchen for our 3 shepherds
now it was our turn to cook each day and to relief them of some of their
work like collecting firewood each day and searching for food or plants
to use as vegetable each day after some 12+ hours of climbing the
mountains with their 1500 sheep ...

what a difference a single peace of fresh roll or potato can make in the
life of a hungry one
an experience that only can be experienced in real life and never
learned at school

last night mami Amparo was our angel of the night last night - she was
exactly on time to assure my angels had a full stomach before going to sleep
then after my return from my Christmas angels after 9 PM - i had another
100 US$ and later the conversion of the 150 EURO and later another 100
$ donation ...
for my Christmas angels
and all Cyberspace Ashram angels out here and there ...
mami Amparo also works for God since long - she also gets a salary every
week or so to support her own help for the poor in the mountains

love and bliss

hans

Why has God never vacation ? Why does God need to work day and night ?
Why can God never make honeymoon ? What does God do with all his time
and money and love ... ???

since my earliest childhood - earliest means less than a few years
my life started with problems and ended with problems
each day started like the previous day ended
as i was about 10 i was old
hence i became the trash can of my physical parents for the remainder of
their lives

then when i was very old - life became even more serious and more work load
and in my early 20-ties
i ended up in Bangladesh, Laos, Cambodia and other *funny* countries
with even more problems
instead of having all the problems of a tiny family
i was faced like all of you with all the problems of an entire country
and much more
all the problems of all world ...

how can YOU sleep ??
how can i sleep here ... i just wanted to end my day some 2 hrs ago ..
then the mail from Stella ...
just another day like all days here

in Cambodia i remember all the bombings from the communists in night
time killing each night around me
in Zaire i remember the hundreds and thousands missing - kidnapped by
the government
here .. i receive the mail and calls of hearts from those hungry in
daily life

now I know why my father never sleeps since thousands of years
all angels on earth always need a guardian angel day and night
hence zero sleep for God
zero honeymoon for God
now i also know why we have no TV in heaven
all money gone for the poor ones on earth who need just the very most
basic need ... food and schooling and housing

hence never expect to meet God in your vacation
- God never makes vacation
- God loves day and night
- God helps day and night where real people need help - those never
having vacation for life time

God is always with the working ones
day and night

love and bliss

hans

Just another day like so many days in my life

here an email i received seconds ago from the orphanage - at 4:52 AM ...
a sleepless night for Stella
Stella is in charge of all internal finances for all my angels from the orphanage
- moments of my life to share with you ...
one night just like most other nights in my life since my earliest childhood

later today we have the recording session planned with my angels from
the orphanage

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From: Stella Duclayan ,,,
To: hans ...
Subject: greetings
Date: Mon, 17 Jan 2005 20:27:50 +0000 (Tue, 04:27 PHT)


Dear Hans,

I have a problem today. The problem is we don't have money to use in 2
weeks
for food, school needs and school tuitions. The truth is we have money
arrived yesterday but it needs 2-3 weeks for the bank to clear it out
before
we can withdraw. What we are thinking to do is to borrow from you if you
have available fund then we can repay you back after 3 weeks. Let me
know if
this is possible. Thank you. Stella

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2 letters i sent back to Stella:

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OK
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of course i never give money to borrow- like all i give gifts of love -
God is no bank - God is love - God gives to all without receiving back

... Stella and the orphanage ..
is but one part of my family
mami Amparo and her poor ones in the mountains another small part of my
family
the family in Catbangen another small part of my family ...
you another part of my family ..
some need Kriya Yoga, others advice, others food, others medicine,
others a miracle, others money for school, others ...
and some just love like my angels at the orphanage

love and bliss

hans