Childhood - personal perception about childhood - the way you see your own childhood may be different from the truth as you are often behind closed doors - separated from your parents and hence lack the knowledge of all words and actions between father an

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personal perception about childhood - the personal perception of own childhood however may change as you grow older and learn more ab out all various aspects of your mother and father as sexual partners - as husband and wife as well as through growing experience in life resulting in increased enlightenment of yourself and those in a clearer perception of your own childhood from a more neutral objective point of view
It is a rather fragile and most important question - as the way you "SEE" your childhood may be the most significant factor to form your adult behavior until these very days - sometimes until death, a full lifetime. Particularly the sexual behavior of younger adults - younger means up to 40+ years and even above - may very substantially be imprinted and mal-formed by the way a child has perceived and still "sees" his own childhood.

The free flow or blockage of kundalini shakti widely depends on your perception of your own parents sexual role and sexual behavior during your own childhood.

From the child point of view all looks different - a child sees usually but a tiny part of the puzzle between mother and father - between husband and wife - a "male" or "female" mother and a "male" or "female" father !!! A child may see and hear the parents part - the mother-part and father-part of all or most conversation. Remember that you selected your own parents for a particular reason. Learn that reason and fulfill it. The reason why YOU selected THESE parents always is Love !

a child normally seldom is allowed observation of the husband-wife part between his parents.

a child often has lifetime open questions or fantasies and lacks firm and true answers to vital questions like:

- are they fighting behind closed doors ?
- why are they fighting - who and what is the exact cause of the fighting i see or perceive or guess ??
- why are my parents cheating, lying or betraying each other ?
- are they arguing behind closed doors or when baby / child sleeping or at school or out of house ... ?
- are my parents sweet and loving, fully open for true love and fully understanding and supporting each others in love ... ???
- is it nice for my mother to be wife - is it nice for my father to be husband ??

Very often the behavior as father or mother toward child is totally different from the behavior as partners - husband and wife.

a child may see loving parents but aggressive partners and ...
as a result of aggression as partners that child may start to fear
fear either or both sides
and thus fear to grow up and BE like mother or father
or fear one part only - either fear of the own sex or the opposite sex

Wrong perception of own parents behavior during childhood may result in denial to grow up to be what God gave you - either a female angel-girl or a male man. Fear of yourself developing the exact same way as your parents may result in suppression of own gender to fully develop sexually or it may result in avoiding or rejecting the opposite gender

such fear thus results in homosexuality or disturbed or suppressed sexuality in any of the known and commonly manifested forms of

homosexual men
- fearing the opposite gender

girls in fear and opinion all girls might be like their own mother was as a sexual female partner to father / to her husband

transvestite men
- men disguising or dressing and behaving as women
- fearing to be male man like own father was / is

lesbian girls
- fearing the opposite sex
- the kind of male partner her father was / is

male girls
- dressing or behaving like males like men
- out of fear to be a woman like mother was

fear of becoming like your parents can be dissolved by

- learning as much as possible about your parents
- by gaining distance from your parents and seeing both neutral from a more distant objective point of view
- by learning the true behavior between husband and wife
- by learning all important sexual aspects of man and woman
- by learning about causes for denial of love and rejection of love between "male and female world"
- by deciding to be truly loving
- by allowing yourself to be fully open and confronted with the problems of your mother and father as sexual beings
- by becoming aware that you as a free child of God can learn from both - mother and father as parents as well as from their sexual behavior and with the divine freedom God gave you you can become totally different - even opposite to your parents in all aspects of their relationship or parental behavior.

You have the power and freedom to be exactly the way YOU WANT to be totally independent of your own parents attitude and behavior. You can adapt certain behavioral patterns and fully select different behavior in other parts or aspects of behavior. You have the power and freedom to to learn from BOTH - from your parents mistakes as well as from your parents strengths and thus fully overcome any problems your parents had or still have in their own role as males or females.

You are a child of God - and only your present body is partially influenced by your parents genes and behaviors, by your parents fears and strengths.

I am that I am ... be the one God made - even inside a mortal human born body !

Enjoy love and bliss from God on your path of love home to God.

I love to be what i am - because my father wanted me to be a son - his son - since my father - God - is infinitely wise and loving - I know that to be a son is the most loving from his absolute point of view - hence i enjoy being a male man - God's son.

I love all girls, mothers, grandmothers, daughters - because i wished a wife from my father and God gave me the single most beautiful female wife I ever could dream of or wish in eternal life - hence i know that all girls are made to be perfect lovers and angels as well as perfect mothers, sisters and friends ...
the only temporary problem we all have is our current mortal ego - once we have dissolve our ego in divine love - we will be most happy being what God made out of his infinite love for all of us children - either female girl or male man !!

all we all need is to learn to love - made to the image of God then all difference between "male and female world" will be but exciting, thrilling and magic in all our divine hearts ... divine love - nothing but love-partners for eternity.

See your own potential and see the potential of all others rather than what they temporarily display, play or manifest while caught in their own ego driven mortal body. See the divinity of all deep buried inside and yet dwelling more and more outside - signaling with many secret symptoms the true being hidden inside that disguise.


love and bliss

hans